this week was marked by lots of rest. we passed around a virus and man, when you have three kids i swear the first virus mutates before it gets through your giant family and then you pass it around once more, just for good luck. i always affirm that we’re all going to have some kick ass immune systems, so we have that going for us.
perspective is such a funny and wonderful thing. when the temps go above 45 it feels like spring again in my mind and add some sunshine and it’s just a whole new world outside of our front door. we had a 65-ish degree day this week and we played in the mud and went on walks and hung a hammock chair from a tree and it was glorious. you’ve got to take it where you can get it in the winter, i think.
yesterday i went, alone, to to a day-long silent meditation retreat in shenandoah valley and it was profound for me. first of all, i think it was the first time since i’ve become a mother that i only had myself to take care of. the whole day was slow, intentional, quiet, peaceful. i spent close to 10 hours in silence. we did guided meditations, silent meditations, walking meditations… we listened to a powerful talk on equanimity and balance, we ate mindfully and slowly, i took a nap (!!!), i walked alone in the woods, in the rain. there were so many “aha” moments for me but after a particularly poignant walking meditation, we came back to a guided meditation and she shared this poem that really spoke to me. i’ll leave it here in case it resonates with anyone else —
settle in the here and now.
reach down into the center
where the world is not spinning
and drink this holy peace.
feel relief flood into every cell.
nothing to do.
nothing to be but what you are already.
nothing to receive but what
flows effortlessly from the
mystery into form.
nothing to run from or run
toward. just this breath,
awareness knowing itself as
embodiment. just this breath,
awareness waking up to truth.
i think the biggest thing we all need to remember is that this peace exists within all of us all the time, we just need to call on it. to be quiet enough for a moment to remember. to access it and draw from it and nurture it. wishing you all much peace this week; be kind to yourselves. xo